For Hall :) part 1

So this post id for Caren Hall. I think she is amazing. Even if your not her, you still might enjoy this post. Sillyness will ensue. I promise.

Hi Hall. Since I'm leaving for two weeks I figured I should finally make that post for you will lots of great stuff.

1. First off, here are The vlogbrothers Hank and John Green, Founders/Mayors of Nerdfighteria. Superdupper made of awesome nerds who are awesome. WATCH All THEIR VIDEOS! www.youtube.com/vlogbrothers

2. ALL CAPS! Super Awesome nerdy band made up of Kristina Horner (www.youtube.com/italktosnakes) and Luke Conard (www.youtube.come/lukeconard) Their songs are awesome and hilarious.

3. Liam Dryden My Favourite youtuber, and the first vlogger I ever found. (wonder why...) (yes, he looks like David Tennant, only younger) www.youtube.com/littleradge

4 Charlie McDonnell www.youtube.com/charlieissocoollike hilariously funny youtuber, writes funny songs.

5. HayleygHoover shes is hilarious, www.youtube.com/hayleyghoover she http://hayleyghoover.blogspot.com/ to, its fantastic,

6.Kristina Horner. her youtubes above, but her blogs cool too.

7. Chameleon Circuit. A trock band,they write songs about Doctor who. composed of Alex Day, Charlie McDonnell, Liam Dryden, and GingerChris/Eddplant. (chris first album, Edd second)

8. Maureen Johnson. young adult author and Twitter Queen. only way to explain her.

9. this video.

10. the last one for this round, but CERTAINLY not the least. Team Star Kid/ Darren Criss. Creators of A Very Potter Musical and A Very Potter Sequel. Honestly, be prepared to laugh non stop until it over. seriously. great music to.

I'll leave you with these for now, because theres lots there, so you should be good for a while :)

Free! ish

So this week is finally over, after a very stress full few days, especially the last 7 hours,(that I spent writing an essay that was due today. I'm finally free to relax and pack for history tour. Which is in two days. Well freeish. Now I get to work on all my personal projects I wanted done before I left. I can't believe My trip is finally almost here. I'm so excited I can hardly wait, except I can wait because I have Robot Unicorn Attack to play and Space unicorns to sing about. LIFE IS GOOD. And Blogs to write, because writing blogs is fun, and important. A few days ago I was reading though my old blog posts, and it was like going back in time, remind me of what it was like to write them. Which, in turn has made me realize I need to blog more. Which I will. So LOOK OUT. When I get back in two weeks Imma be writin up a storm! In the mean time look at this! "Keep Calm and Don't Blink" Its a clever little Doctor Who reference in a parody poster of this one, "Keep Calm and Carry on" A poster put out by the British Government World War 2, to raise moral. It wasn't really used though until someone rediscovered in 2000 and has since been making posters. cool huh?

Alright I'm hungry. IMMA GO EAT SOME FOOODZZZZ.

More thoughts.

So I have a question, and blogging about it gives me an excuse to procrastinate on my English essay. When it comes to school, which is better, the grades or actually learning? I'll be honest, my grades of late are not where I would like them to be. But heres the thing, Up until my junior year, I always got straight A's, and mostly without trying, but even though I got great grades, I didn't really learn much. Then when I hit about halfway though junior year, they slowly started to sink, and I believe its mainly because I caught a bad case of senioritis my junior year of high school. So not convenient. And I didn't really even care. And this year, I've started to notice something, even though most of my grades have dropped to B's, I'm actually learning things. Like now that the information is somewhat useful, and I'm actually learning it, I can't seam to show that I'm learning it. Like for example, I took a precal test earlier this week, and when we got it back, I got a 75% which I'm sure is one of the lowest grades I've ever gotten, especially in math. I knew how to do them, but I made tiny little stupid easy math errors, so even though I did the hard Pre-cal stuff right, I still got them wrong, and that seams to be happening a lot this year in Math. It doesn't make since, I mean, Math is MY subject, I've always been extreamly good at it. I was correcting my math teachers in elementary school, and a few times explaining the problem they couldn't to the class. Seriously. People were always asking me is I was going to be an engineer, or telling me I should go into math. But to be honest, I was good at it, but it bored me. I slept though both freshman and sophomore years math classes, and still came out with high A's. So why am I suddenly making these stupid mistakes. Why can't I get myself to actually study and do homework now that it seams like I need to. Would it be better for me to revert back to the person I used to be? Where I didn't learn anything, but was amazing at getting good test scores and grades with out trying? Or should I continue to think for myself, and in the process actually learn? Even if it means I can't pull of the grades I need?

Delivering rainbows, all around the world!

So today I did a quick little video response to PhilipDeFranco about change. His vloggity today was about the changes and he asked for video responses, so I did one. Whoo.

So a few days ago I stumbled upon this, I knew about Throwboys before, and had heard people talk about them. I'd seen some of their pillows in videos, mainly the subscribe one , and a few of the "chat" ones. But when I came across them this time, I found the throwbabies. LESSTHANTHREE. Also I wish I had money I could spend on random things, because I would so buy a ton of these pillows, Aren't they just awesome?

Sometimes I find things that I just need to share, because I feel it would positively effect peoples days. like this.. God I love the internet. and Parry Gripp. Parry Gripp is just nothing but amazingawesomeness.

YESSSSSSS FRIENDSSSS!

SOOO I am super excited right now! Why? because of your trip in 5.5 days to new York? you may ask. Well theres that to, but the main reason is, So I've been hanging out in yourpants, having some great discussions and making new friends. I freekin love yourpants. Like really. Yourpants is the best place ever. Hehe, ok enough with the jokes. The main reason that makes today SO FREEKIN AWESOME is that when I logged on today, I had a message from a friend of mine, concerning.... ready for this? A Collab-Channel. YESSS! So basically, in the coming months, a girl from Washington, a girl from Sweden, a girl from Portugal, a guy from London, and I are going to start a collab-channel, where still working on the name and schedule, but I'm pretty darn excited. I love meeting new people. HMYFEEKINYESSSSSS!

Sorry, my gushing is out. almost. AHHHHHHHHH! ok, now its out.

Haha, so many words on this page aren't words according to blogspot and Google chromes spell check. WELL GUESS WHAT INTERNET?! THEY ARE NOW! whatcha gonna do about it? eh?

Oh no, I feel more gushing coming. kjshdflkjrsaasbjsdciuadslcl. I'm just, sooo happy,I want to go tell all my irl friends, but they just wouldn't understand. But you understand right internet?

ok, I need to get back to my homework before I puke up more word gush. BYE


last song played- same as yesterday, to busy to listen today. *sad face*

Thoughts

When you are growing up, everyone tells you you can be whatever you want. Thats a lie. I was always very focused on what I wanted to do when I "Grew Up" when I was little. In kindergarten I made a plan, and from then on I always had a detailed plan. That is until about two years ago. That was when I decided everything I thought I had wanted, I didn't want. And on top of that, I didn't know what I wanted. This now being the time in my life when I should be making important decision about it, and I was lost. I still don't know for sure, but I know what I would really like to do. I want to tell stories, I'm going to major in film when I head to college in the fall, I want to tell tales, have adventures, and make an impact on people lives, the way so many people have had in mine. When I am writing, or looking over things I have written, I often feel like I wont be good enough, my way with words and imagination wont be enough, because even though I have read SO much, and done so many things though movies and books, that were so real to me, I have rarely "lived." Very seldom have I done something simply because I wanted to, or simply live in the moment. So much of what I do is always pushing for the future. And I'm sick of it. I have been for a while. I wake up, I go to school, I came home, I do homework, I go to bed, with very few changes. Some times I wonder why I bother. I wish I could just stop, I feel like I am waiting for my self out in the world, just out there waiting for me to find myself, but I can't leave yet, I have to stay. And it hurts, he hurts so bad that on some days it makes me sick. I may not fully know who I am, but I now I am a traveler. I have sea legs, and strong ones. I feel like I need to keep moving , keep moving, keep moving, but I've been harnessed, trapped, and I can't move. Frank Turner is an amazing musician, and I hear myself in almost all of his songs, but most especially, "the road" a part of it goes "ever since a small child I've been scared I've been afraid, of being trapped by circumstance by staying in one place, so I always keep a small bag full of clothes carefully stored, somewhere secret some where safe and somewhere close to the door. To the east, to the east, the road beneath my feet, to the west to the wast, I haven't got there yet, and to the north to the north, theres no time for you to waste, to the south to the south, my time is running out." I can pack a bag with everything I need for at least a week in under 10 minuets. It seams that the meaning of life is to go to school, get good grades, so you can get into a good college, so you can get a good job, so you can make money, so you can send you kids to college. Does the cycle never end? and I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't see the point. When they tell you you can be anything you want when you grow up, It is a lie. Because as much as I want to, I could never be like Frank Turner or Greg Holden. There is no way for me to be an English-raised punk-rocky folk singer. I was raised in California, and I'm a girl. I'm to young to drink, and if I where to just leave and hit the road I'd be looked down upon.



We now return to our regular scheduled programming...
I like days like today. Today was very productive, I cleaned my room, edited/uploaded a video, and started a writing new song, and played my guitar for a few hours. Now I'm writing. I FEEL LIKE A CREATIVE STORM. The weather today was AMAZING! I had a really good day yesterday to! I wonder if I'm lucky enough to make it a three day streak....

In the 6 days now remaining before I leave for the east, I am wanting to blog everyday, as a kinda warm up for BEDA. So if I forget, or if I get lazy, cause some trouble.


last song played on i-pod = I don't remember, but it was by Greg Holden.
Quote of the day - "I don't know who she is anymore, or who she was, but I need to find her" - Paper Towns by John Green.*

*ok no lie, I just reached over and pulled a book off my shelf, open'd it up and that was the first sentence I read. spooky.

Tiger Blood

Oh look at this two post in one week? Am I still sick or something? No, just wanted to come have a chat. Although to be honest, now that I am here I for got what I was going to say...

ANYWAYS, I leave to the east in 8 days. EXCITEMENT.

Greg Holden is still clogging* up my sound waves, Its now March**, I can't seam to focus on anything, and OOOH PRETTY LIGHTS! Um sorry....

Sooo, How about Charlie Sheen eh? Is that guys crazy as batshit or what? Though what amazed me most*** is that he gets the same amount, if not more news coverage then whats going on in Libya and all the amounts of crazy that Gaddafi is. I mean, yeah their both completely-bonkers crazy guys, but Gaddafi is in charge of a COUNTRY! and people are dieing. Maybe I'm wrong, but it seams like they should get more attention than an insane druggy**** with Tiger blood.*****

I'm really thankful I have the internet to keep me up to date and inform me.

Anywho, I think I'm gonna squeeze an episode of Buffy before bed, Night y'all.
Until next time.


P.S. Click on the links hidden in here, there aren't many, but it's worth your time.

Last Song played- "The Art of Falling"- Greg Holden
Quote of the day - I think I've put enough quotes in this post... if not, FOLLOW THE LINKS. just saying. If you want to , you know.


*clogging makes it sound bad, the music that comes from Greg could never be something bad, I just can't think of a better word.
** WHAT?! It's March already, but but, it just became 2011?!
***And also makes me a little angry/annoyed.
****OK! He pasted the drug test, "no I'm not on drugs! I'm on a drug, it's called Charlie Sheen" -Charlie Sheen.
*****Even if he thinks he's #WINNING #Twitterjokes #I'mNOTonCharlieSheen

Incoherency

It seams the only time I blog is when I'm home sick. I guess that is the only time I have to sit around an organize my thoughts. Most today, (at least the conscience part) was spent laying in my bed starring out the window watching the sky go from blue to grey to the dark-grey-blue colour it is now. While listening to Greg Holden's Not my living room series. and thinking. because unfortunately I am not completely-out-of-my-mind sick.


And that is as far as I got. I wrote that yesterday, and that much was written with one hand from a distance, and I'm fairly certain it only came about because I was to ill to get up to get paper(and I needed to write something, my brain was going crazy), or to even move. Its a good thing laptops were invented.

Anyways, I am feeling much better now, which is a major relief, and I'm ready to face the day tomorrow. hopefully. I CAN DO THIS!

On an exciting note, I have 88 days left until I graduate from high school! Yay/Yikes!

And I have less than 2 weeks until I hit the east coast. WHOOOO!



last song played- 'Bar on A' _Greg Holden
quote of the day _ "Don't head butt the sun, Idiot!" - Craig Benzine (wheezywaiter)